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Urghh.. Tgl. Brp skrg? 27 jan08. Pkl 08.32 d hpq. Ohh.. Kti dkmpl bsk, n aq lom konsul blas. Hakaka.. 1mgg full up.. Hwahagagaga.. Wad can i do? Hrs e blajar blajar garap kti blajar garap blajar.. Tp apa naya.. Daku yg mualez ini just sleep n sleepy.. Try 2 forget it away.. But, how hard i try to washing it out dy malah mnancap smakin dalam.. Oh my plen.. I'm not a cappucinno.. Gw nyante.. Tp ati ma pikiran autonomic gw yg plg dlm (d independent, out of my normally mind) malah smakin nancap. Gw pengecut. Gw lari. Pdhl gw tau itu g bs nyelesein apa2. But i just nyantee nyia2in idupq.. Uff.. How fuck me??
Gila, mgkn skg ud sringny. Gw ud tbiasa. Gw g breaksi. Pdhl ad bag hati gw yg btmbah mati. Jyaah.. Klo mati smua, gw g lg pny hati dunk?? Gw inget.. Wktu jumat kmrn.. Mgkn sgkng yg namany level stres, sumpek, ngelu, depresi ud trlewati gw ampe mikir.. YaAllah qo rasany aq ikhlas mati y.. Gosh! I just wanna enjoy my life, but i m not in d right side.. Im overlaping.. Duh.. Klo gw gila gmn? Luph my mom alot da.. Co cwit pek.. Gila.. Knp aq slalu ngrasa aq g dicintai, g diperhatiin, krg ksh syg.. Pdhl bnyk bgt tmn yg mcintai aq, nyuport aq, bantu aq sebrengsek apapun aq.. Mgkn gr2 hatiq yg mati. Panca indra yg qisolasi dr dunia. Gw cm idup dlm pikiran2 gw dw. Skhizofren? Not for n0W..
My Robb.. Gw tau idupq g bkl brubah klo gw g brubah. Tp tlg bgt.. Bwt aq bs brubah. Uangeel.. Krn gw emang ngualeem.. Gila gw tu gila perhatian. MyRobb plis tuolong Ridhoi aq y.. amien amien Ya Robbal alamien..

[Surabaya, 270108]